EEEEEEEEK! There are only 10 days left until Christmas!! I am sooooo excited, and yet slightly panicky as I still have not purchased of gifts for the parental units. Dunno what to get them. It's soooooo hard to think right now.
I had a not so good weekend food wise. I had a total lapse on Friday. Starting in the morning with the remains of my brothers chocolate that was in the fridge and ended with Spaghetti Bolognaise at my friends house. An interesting thing though. I have never been a fan of Spag Bol. However, that was the best thing that I have ever tasted in my life!!!
I can't wait until I do start eating again to see what other tastes I can discover!! Anyway, after Friday, I decided that I couldn't go on just eating I had to get back on plan and so whilst my friend was having her tattoo done, I decided to have my tongue pierced!
The way I see it, I now can't eat! Even if I want to!! I know, because I tried :( But it has given me the time I need to put things into perspective. What the hell was I thinking? I honestly do not know what frame of mind I was in. The only thing that I can think of is that this time of year is so stressful and food is so much in focus in everybody's minds that when I got a little stressed, the first thing that came to mind was food. And hence I ended up in the frige and down the chocolate before I even realised what the hell I was doing. And then when we got to tea time. It was like this little voice saying "well you've had that chocolate now. you may as well eat something proper". I do also wonder if it had something to do with my low blood pressure last week, my lack of councelling session last week, this week being "ladie's week"? Perhaps a combination of all of that. All I know is that, I have done it now. I have had my lapse. I have to work out what I can learn from this! Thankfully, my weight has gone down on my scales. But only time will tell what happens on Wednesday!
In the meantime, I am concentrating on the positive things. I had a brilliant weekend. I am loving all of the new attention I am getting. Seriously, it's so new to me. I got one bloke who was just trying it on all night, then another bloke who was getting jealous of him and threatening to hit him. Then this lesbian tried it on with me, then a random at the bar asked me to marry him! It really was very very funny!!
All ended in me having to look after the drunk people!! Of course! Making cheesey chips and not being able to succomb to temptation as tongue was swollen and I was not able to swallow!!
But now I am back home. I am drinking my water as I can now swallow, although I can't say "s". Which is very annoying. Hope that stops soon!
Well, we shall have to take this week slowly and hope to god that Friday doesn't show too bad on the weigh in!
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