I can't believe it has been 2 weeks since I have posted an entry here! And I've done over 100 days on Lighter Life. Well, actually I haven't! Let's face it, December was never going to be easy. Especially when I had to go to my parentals for Christmas Dinner and my daddy is a chef! It was just too hard to resist. I guess I wasn't as tough as I thought I was. It's just proving very hard to get back to the plan now.
I have to be fair to myself. I have not gone totally mad on it. I really have learnt a lot about my relationship with food. Like when it's time to stop. I didn't feel the need to eat past the point I felt full. Even to the extent that I left half of my Grandma-sized Portion of dinner and at least a third of the tiny portion of Gordon Ramseys After Eight Cake!
Perhaps it was a bonus that I had this little trial of the normal world because now I know that I can eat like a "normal" person. I don't have to go back to the way it was before.
Last night I tried to eat like I used to. I had sausages! Just a really bad idea. I felt just so sick and I even had to leave work early today because I thought I was going to be sick. I just need to find that piece of me that had the strength to do LL before.
Get back onto the right path. I can't risk gaining weight. Not when I have done so well this far. At my last weigh in on 22nd December I had lost 4 stone and 8 pounds. I had thrashed my Christmas Target and I was delighted. So what on earth makes me continue to nibble? I know, it seems like a good idea at the time. But it isn't, not really. I'm not going in the direction I want to be going!! But no more. Asking myself what I want, what I really want. I know that the answer is to keep losing weight. To be healthy and slim and continue getting this brilliant response off people. Not to keep eating and end up gaining that 4 stone again.
My auntie and uncle came down from Sunderland at the weekend and my auntie didn't believe I was me! And I was showing my dad some photos of me and my friends and my Dad said "who's that?" and it was me. He didn't believe me. The photo gave me some killer cheekbones!! So I am still getting those lovely comments. And my small jeans still fit! I am going to learn from this episode. But as of now, the episode, known as the "December Indescretion" is over.
Oh, funny thing. Over Christmas dinner, we were talking about diets! What an odd conversation to have whilst stuffing your face full of chocolate cake and wine?! Not me, that was the family. I have still stuck only to water!! Well, every little helps - plus having bought Daddy and Mother a Wii for Christmas, I did burn some Turkey and Chocolate calories on the Boxing. Owww that hurts!!
B x
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