Time is just flying. Which is not good because quite frankly I am getting nothing done. I haven't started my Christmas Shopping yet, which is worrying me. And worse still, I still don't have the foggiest what I need to buy. I need a holiday. Just to chill out and think about what I need to do in less than a month!! Eeeek! And oh my god, I'm on Day 70!
To add to my stress, I have lost my mobile and it's like losing a limb. Honest to God, I don't know people coped before there was mobile phones! I'm basically going to rip my house apart when I get home. Because it has to be somewhere. It's ringing when I call it, so I'm pretty sure it's not been nicked. This is a nightmare.
Oh and my stomach hurts and I have this total craving for chicken. And yes, there is this part of me saying, what's the harm in a bit of chicken. But I don't want to break the abstinence. It might start there, but where would it end? So I have reasoned that it's crazy to risk the last 69 and a half days for a bite of chicken!
Instead I will wait anxiously for tonight's weigh in. I will so be having my cranberry bar as soon as I've weighed in! I can't understand this, I was so confident earlier in the week, and today I am feeling really anxious about the dreaded scales. I can totally see a huge difference in my body now, so why are those damn numbers so important to me? I am just praying for 4lb to get to my 3 and a half stone and I am hoping that if I don't get the 4lb, that I am not too disappointed. So I guess in a way, by being this anxious about jumping on the scales I am preparing myself just incase I don't do as well as I hope.
I worked out today that I have to lose another 2 stone and 9lb to get me to my lowest weight, which is where I was when I went to Sri Lanka 2 years ago and it took me a whole year to lose the 5 stone odd that was required to get me there. Whereas now, I have lost 3stone and 3lb in 10 weeks. I just hope the next 2 stone and 9lb comes off as quickly!
In fact, I feel another target and another ticker coming on . . .
Getting Back to Pre-Sri Lanka Weight
Ah, I feel a little bit better with a smaller target to achieve!! But we'll see how much we can knock off that once tonight's weigh in is over with! I have my fingers crossed!
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