OMG, one month till Chrismas! And I haven't even started my Christmas Shopping. I wish I had the faintest idea what to buy for people! But my mind is drawing a total blank. I think I am going to destroy my scales! They told me I have put weight on last night! I wish they'd make their mind up! Be nice to me, make me suffer, just tell me the correct weight god dammit! Anyway, I am noticing changes in my body so I suppose that has to count for something right, so who cares what the stupid scales say! I'm just going to drink my water and hope for the best tomorrow night. Hmmm, I guess that means I have turned a corner. In my previous weight loss attempts, I have gone off on a bender eating anything in sight if I thought I had put weight on. My feeling was always, "it doesn't matter now, I've put weight on anyway so I may as well eat and I can start again next week". But thoughts like that just haven't even crossed my mind. I've just been thinking that I want to stick to this, and even thoughts like "I should start swimming again" have crossed my mind! I am hoping that in the New Year I can start swimming before work. At the moment, I need to try and get myself to bed at night!! Because I can barely get up for work on time, let alone make it to the leisure centre for 7am!
And it seems that having my brother home is not yet driving me barmy. It is true that I did spend an hour and a half cleaning up after him last night but I am hopeful that it was a one off. Guess my positivity didn't dwindle off into insignificance after all!
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